Thursday, April 15, 2010

I'm in a sad mood right now.... :(

So I'm going to High School next year.

Suddenly my parents are stressing about credits and majors and college and stuff, gotta worry about where I'm going for High School (LVA), what I'm majoring in, what other electives I can take, getting into a higher-level match class so I can have a better chance of going to BYU, etc.
Suddenly, I can't just go to school, I have to make decisions and I have to worry about what decisions I'm going to make. I can't just let my parent's do it all anymore.

I feel like... like... this is it. You go to High School, and then college, and then-BOOM- you're all grown up. Gotta go out there and make a living. I feel like this summer is all I've got left before I've gotta start my life.

I'm only 13!!! I don't wanna have to worry about all this!!! I just want to go to Girls Camp and Aspen Grove and Family reunions, and not worry about growing up. I don't want to start having to make all theses big, life-changing choices already.

And.... I don't (or at least didn't) think I need to. I'm a bright girl. I placed highest in the whole state of Nevada in my last writing proficiency test, and I've always been in the top percentile in CRT's, SAT's, and whatever combination of letters, I skipped 6th grade, and I've gotten Straight A's since preschool. My mom always used to make these jokes about never having to pay for college, because of the 150% scholarship I'll get.

And now, suddenly, it's like they're actually worrying about that stuff. They're making sure I do really advanced classes to be sure BYU will even accept me. And I wonder.... If I'm doing something wrong. If I'm not that smart anymore, if I've let my parents down somehow. If I'm not meeting those 150% expectations.

Or, you know it could just be that time of the month.... ;)

5 comments:

  1. You're still a very smart girl. You know that. BYU is very hard to get in to these days so they're rightish to worry except that there are lots of good schools out there so it's not like if you don't get in to BYU you'll never be able to go to college.

    On the other hand your parents both know how much easier it is to do college the right way rather than wasting time and going nowhere and then finding yourself with 4 kids, a full time job and needing to go back to school (ahem). It's something that needs to be considered, something you need to think about sometimes. You know, between girls camp and Aspen Grove and family reunions.

    it is growing up but don't worry too much, you get to ease in to it.

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  2. Relax. You're going to rock your classes. Take it from someone who thought the same thing you did.

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  3. I still tell people that I have no intention of paying for your college. But it's not a joke it's a fact.


    If you want you could go to 8th grade a Saville next year ;-)

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  4. I skipped 6th grade too! (Well, it was more like half of 6th and half of 7th because I skipped between semesters.)

    Don't stress. You're good enough. You're smart enough. And doggone it, people like you.

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  5. I agree with Bythelbs. I didn't skip 6th grade, but I'm still smart enough to know what's what. You are Awesome.

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